The young and the pampered.

I've just recently began to realise the power, the control I have over my future. Everything on wards from when I graduate, is up to me and honestly, I have never felt so terrified. I've never had the chance to truly work for something- the only thing I've ever achieved for myself is good grades and plastic trophies but what does that matter? I've always had everything handed to me on a silver platter by my parents. In a way, I'm lucky to have parents who were successful and love me so much, but in a way I am also hindered because I severely doubt my abilities to strike out on my own.

I have never earned my own pocket money, I have never bought anything with money I have earned, I have never worked anywhere (excepting my vet practicals), I've never even travelled on a public bus by myself. I'm as naive to the outside world as a new born baby and all in all, it makes me feel pretty useless to everyone around me who is much more capable.

My friend, who I had a conversation with over dinner, told me about how his parents never buy him anything. His phone, his wallet and his clothes come from his own pocket and then and there I felt like a spoiled brat.

Of course, one day I want to be able to do the same for my kids, to give them everything they want but in order to do that, I have to be able to reach the state my parents are in.

It's going to be a long and hard journey and I need a confidence boost!
Time to go out and earn something for myself!

Can I love this song?

"well, sticks and stones will break your bones
and leave you lying in the mud
but you get scared when we're alone
like I might suck your blood

and I could tell you a witch's spell
but you just might blow your top
and you start to run just as I'm having fun
and it's awfully hard to stop
it's awfully hard to stop
it's just too hard to stop

I don't think I can stop"

Climbing is tiring.

What is maturity? Does it exist? How many people can actually say they are mature in every aspect?

I've come a long way that's for sure, but occasionally, I'm not so sure of myself- am I making the right choice? Am I really growing?

Back to the question- what is maturity? I used to think about it as a number, an age you pass when you no longer want childish things, you think like an 'adult' and you are trustworthy.

I still want childish things; toys still amaze me and I love video games- plus, I know quite a few adults who are more immature than I am.
I suppose maturity has a lot of angles, maturity about dealing with yourself, maturity in dealing with others, maturity with emotions so on and so forth.

But how do you attain all of them?
Is it only experience that helps you climb the ladder up to the pinnacle of maturity?

Oh how I wish there was a shortcut for everyone.