The young and the pampered.

I've just recently began to realise the power, the control I have over my future. Everything on wards from when I graduate, is up to me and honestly, I have never felt so terrified. I've never had the chance to truly work for something- the only thing I've ever achieved for myself is good grades and plastic trophies but what does that matter? I've always had everything handed to me on a silver platter by my parents. In a way, I'm lucky to have parents who were successful and love me so much, but in a way I am also hindered because I severely doubt my abilities to strike out on my own.

I have never earned my own pocket money, I have never bought anything with money I have earned, I have never worked anywhere (excepting my vet practicals), I've never even travelled on a public bus by myself. I'm as naive to the outside world as a new born baby and all in all, it makes me feel pretty useless to everyone around me who is much more capable.

My friend, who I had a conversation with over dinner, told me about how his parents never buy him anything. His phone, his wallet and his clothes come from his own pocket and then and there I felt like a spoiled brat.

Of course, one day I want to be able to do the same for my kids, to give them everything they want but in order to do that, I have to be able to reach the state my parents are in.

It's going to be a long and hard journey and I need a confidence boost!
Time to go out and earn something for myself!